I can hardly believe that Faith's birth is just 7 weeks away. Time seems to be passing by much too quickly. I wish I knew how to slow it down. I guess I can either watch in horror as the time goes by or I can cherish these moments.
Some of you must be praying for my back pain to let up because I was able to sit in chair for almost 3 hours today (while catching up with Esther) and I only experienced a little pain. Usually I can't sit for more than a few minutes before the pain is too much. God is good :)
There is something else that I especially want to thank Him for today. God has blessed me throughout this pregnancy but it has been a painful road. This is supposed to be the happiest time in a woman's life. I am supposed to be getting congratulations, not condolences. I am supposed to be getting a nursery ready, not making funeral arrangements. A friend I grew up with was going to make a carrot cake for my baby shower... then all the sudden there was no baby shower. One thing that has really hurt me is seeing other women have their baby showers and knowing that no one would throw one for me.
But I am happy to say that I will be having a shower for Faith after all! I didn't expect anyone to throw me one knowing Faith's life expectancy, but my friends offered to throw one for me in early January. I don't expect to be showered with gifts (there is nothing that we really need) but I am so thankful. My friend Jennifer suggested that we have a "prayer shower" where we would read Scripture and pray and celebrate Faith's coming with friends. I just hope that this will be a happy occasion and not a tearful one.
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My name is Myah and this is the story of my baby girl and our journey with anencephaly.
At my 19-week ultrasound, I was told that something was wrong with my baby's head. The doctor said that my baby had no brain. I'm sure most people wouldn't have even considered her to be alive. I was told that I could safely continue my pregnancy and allow her to die naturally, or I could induce labour and terminate the pregnancy. I chose to carry my baby to term for one simple reason: love. In my eyes there was no decision to be made. I had nothing but love and high hopes for her, and I named her Faith Hope. I cherished every moment of the pregnancy, and for five months we hoped and prayed. Then to everyone's surprise, we were blessed with 3 months and 4 days with Faith before she went to Heaven. She was the sweetest little girl... so beautiful and so full of life. I feel so blessed to be her mother.
I created this blog 10 weeks before my daughter was born. The posts here are very personal, emotional, brutally honest, and at times ungraceful. It's not easy for me to share so much of our life with the world. But it is my hope that by sharing our story, God will be glorified for all He has done for us. I also hope that this blog will reach other moms out there who are facing the same prenatal diagnosis that I did.
Our doctors firmly believed that Faith would never achieve consciousness and would likely not survive for more than a few seconds or minutes after birth. They didn't understand how she was thriving for all those weeks: how she was smiling, cooing, crying, drinking milk, breathing on her own, resisting infection, and responding to her surroundings. It is possible --all things are possible with God.
This is our story, to God be the glory.
At my 19-week ultrasound, I was told that something was wrong with my baby's head. The doctor said that my baby had no brain. I'm sure most people wouldn't have even considered her to be alive. I was told that I could safely continue my pregnancy and allow her to die naturally, or I could induce labour and terminate the pregnancy. I chose to carry my baby to term for one simple reason: love. In my eyes there was no decision to be made. I had nothing but love and high hopes for her, and I named her Faith Hope. I cherished every moment of the pregnancy, and for five months we hoped and prayed. Then to everyone's surprise, we were blessed with 3 months and 4 days with Faith before she went to Heaven. She was the sweetest little girl... so beautiful and so full of life. I feel so blessed to be her mother.
I created this blog 10 weeks before my daughter was born. The posts here are very personal, emotional, brutally honest, and at times ungraceful. It's not easy for me to share so much of our life with the world. But it is my hope that by sharing our story, God will be glorified for all He has done for us. I also hope that this blog will reach other moms out there who are facing the same prenatal diagnosis that I did.
Our doctors firmly believed that Faith would never achieve consciousness and would likely not survive for more than a few seconds or minutes after birth. They didn't understand how she was thriving for all those weeks: how she was smiling, cooing, crying, drinking milk, breathing on her own, resisting infection, and responding to her surroundings. It is possible --all things are possible with God.
This is our story, to God be the glory.
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