One month from today

One month from today will be my Grandpa's birthday and very possibly Faith's birthday!

I called my doctor's office this morning to see if the meeting with the obstetrician and neonatologist was scheduled yet and the receptionist had no clue what I was talking about. I have been waiting for these doctors to set an appointment for about six weeks now. I am starting to get a little anxious... are they going to leave this until the day before I go into labour? I was kind of hoping we would have a birth plan in place by now. Faith is starting to drop and we're coming very close to our due date. I am due in one month and I feel totally unprepared!

I refused to see a specialist for this pregnancy because I guess I just didn't see the point. My obstetrician's receptionist called before my initial consultation and tried to convince me to see some specialist and I told her "No, thank you." She asked me, "Why don't you want to see the specialist?" I answered, "Why would I see a specialist?" She said that the specialist could do an amniocentesis and "other tests" and would provide special counseling. I said "No, I don't want an amniocentesis and I don't want counseling." The receptionist had nothing else to pitch and ultimately failed in her attempts to pawn me off (which was actually the doctor trying to pawn me off). When I spoke to the obstetrician afterwards, she did admit that the specialist would have probably pushed me for termination. Whoa, big surprise there!

Well anyway... the consultation with the obstetrician didn't go so well. She was just as insensitive and unsupportive as any other doctor I had seen. I decided to go to a Christian family doctor for my prenatal care instead. Just the basic care: she takes my weight, checks my urine, measures my belly, checks the baby's heart beat, takes my Bp, and asks me how I'm feeling. No fancy shmancy care. My obstetrician will still be there for the delivery, but she hasn't really been involved other than that.

I am really amazed when I hear of someone in a similar situation who has all these specialists on the case. What are they even doing? My doctors have always just told me there was nothing much they could or would do. Well that's fine, at least they admit it. I am not counting on them anyway. I have God with me and He can do what they can't!